Saturday, March 29, 2008
boycott
I thought maybe I should boycott praying for a while, or at the very least still keep up a dialog with God but just not ask for any requests. I tried this out last night. I told God how I felt about this whole thing, and how angry I am. I told him that down here people say that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, and that he's given me more than I can handle. I don't know if this is a good thing or not. Every night I usually ask God to protect my family and friends and continue to surround them with His love. I haven't done that the last two nights. I'm boycotting requests because it seems that God's inbox is full. I hope that God does continue to surround my family and friends with His love. I just don't plan to ask him to do so until I can figure out when he has cleared out his prayer inbox.
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i think it's a good thing to tell God exactly how you feel. He want's to know that. don't be afraid of it. when we lost Jorai, God got quite an earful from me. don't feel bad or ashamed for telling your real feelings to Him. He already knows our true hearts.
i'm so sorry you're going through this. i thought i'd have better advice or words, but i just can't find anything other than 'this sucks'. i want so bad to be able to take this pain and frustration and hurt and helplessness away from you, but i know i can't.
you guys are constantly in our prayers. please know that.
Thank you for the prayers. :) Sucks is definitely the word I keep coming up with too.
I contacted catholic social services yesterday to begin the adoption process.
Sure, we may end up with a biological child of our own someday.. but biology is not really that important to us as much as having a family is.
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