my journal.

I started a journal for this pregnancy a few months back. It included the history of how this pregnancy came to be. I started out with a letter highlighting our journey towards parenthood, including a brief history of Charlie and our 2 miscarriages. This journal will be given to this child when they are an adult and can understand what everything in it means. In the opening letter I also share a little about the events leading up to when he or she was conceived (not including any yucky details or TMI or anything like that).
After the opening letter I write random things that happened on the dates they happened. I wrote about our first ultrasound, and how I cried when I heard the heartbeat for the first time. I wrote about how scared I was during the first trimester and why. I recently added an entry about the first time I felt him or her kick and my feelings about that. I feel that this journal has been helping me connect with this child a little bit. I want this baby to know what this pregnancy has been like for me.. the good and the bad. Like I said before, he or she won't get this journal until they are an adult. Who knows if they'll even want to read it, but my reasons for writing it will remain the same. I want my child to know how much they are wanted and what I went through to have them here.