Parenthood is Scary!

What have I gotten myself into?! I'm going to give birth sometime in the near future and I'm freaking out. This week I've had my almost three year old nephew. I've been "attempting" to teach him how to use the potty. Thank GOODNESS I have a steam cleaner. I've steam cleaned my living room carpets and my couch today. I'm glad I have a little bit of patience. He's at least going on the potty some of the time.
So back to the original reason I'm writing... Why the freak out? Because kids are a HUGE responsibility! As I take care of my nephew this week, I realize that I'm not living on my schedule -- I'm living on his. I shower and take care of my needs when when he's sleeping or my husband is occupying his time. Soon I'll be doing that for baby Kate too. My needs will be on the back burner and my life will change dramatically. Sleep will be something of the past, as will picking up and leaving whenever I please. Don't get me wrong, I love children and can't wait to meet baby Kate but having my dear sweet nephew here reminds me of what's about to happen to my life. My life will be diapers, and feeding, and sleeping when I can grab a few moments for myself. I'm hoping my life will also be smiles, and happiness too. Having my nephew here is great fun. He makes me smile when he's being sweet and cuddly. I'll miss him when we take him home at the end of the week. Once he's gone, I'll start getting ready for my own little one. The letters for her nursery wall will be finished, and her clothes will be hung. After all of this needless worry, I suppose maybe I'm freaking out because I realize that I'm ready to be a parent again.

I'll add a picture of my adorable nephew for your viewing pleasure. :)