Thursday, January 1, 2009
nesting instinct
I've been getting the urge to organize things, and possibly start writing in Kate's baby book. The urge is there, but the scaredy cat part of me keeps saying "not yet." I want to hang clothes in the closet, and wash the new outfits, and paint Kate's letters and hang them on her wall. I really want to do these things, but am finding it hard to actually do them. I think it's because I've been down the road before. I did these things when preparing for Charlie, and I started doing them about this time in my pregnancy with him. I gave birth to him when I was 35 weeks pregnant and was grateful everything was done to prepare for him the night my water broke. On Tuesday, January 5th I'll be 30 weeks pregnant. Just 5 weeks shy of when I unexpectedly had Charlie. I'd really like to be done preparing by week 35 -- which gives me 5 weeks to do so. I know I can get it done in 2 days if I wanted to.. I just need more convincing that it will all end differently this time so I don't feel like I did it all for nothing.
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Hi, I don't think I've commented on your blog before, and to be honest, don't remember how I found it. You're due just a few days before me, and reading your blog is so comforting and insightful. It makes me feel normal when all these crazy things are happening with my body. I've never lost a child, and I am so very sad about Charlie, but you sure are a good and brave Mom. Thank you for the hope and stories you share. Whatever you get done to prepare for Katie will be perfect, and whatever doesn't get done won't be important. She'll grow up happy and healthy and loved, since it's obvious you have such a wonderful family of four. Best wishes.
-Steph
It will come Beth. Even if it happens the night before you go into labor, when all of a sudden it hits you how close this baby is to arriving and you call Wendy and I and say "hurry up and come over and help me get all this crap done before the baby gets here" lol. I'm looking forward to that moment.
I agree with these ladies. You'll get it done somehow.... no need to have everything prepared before she gets here if you're not emotionally ready. You've got friends who will help out even if you've delivered Kate and haven't washed or hung up anything!!! It'll all work out--don't push yourself physically or emotionally.
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