We're approaching the three year mark soon. Three years since Charlie came screaming into this world and all too soon after left it. I was thinking about that tonight when I was looking through his photos. Every fall seems to bring back so many memories of the time leading up to Charlie's arrival. The preparations we made as we excitedly anticipated meeting our son. As I reminisced I remembered a quote that spoke to me deeply after Charlie passed away.
"We sat side by side in the morning light and looked out at the future together."
Why did that speak to me so strongly after Charlie's passing? Because he passed away in the middle of the night. When we finally left the hospital to go home, the sun was rising. A new day was dawning. My husband and I sat together on the car ride home both broken and devastated and looked into our future. Our future without our son.
5 comments:
I feel for you, i really do. Its been 4 months since i said goodbye to Kye. My son was born still at 31 weeks on May 5th. Your blog gives me hope about happiness in the future and about being able to have a beautiful healthy rainbow baby.
a future not as you hoped, but a future still. Three years must be really tough - hugs...
awe, I do remember you mentioning the fall as being difficult before. (((hugs)))
YOu just made me gulp back the tears with that quote. I can't imagine 3 years...
I was just sitting here clicking "next blog" (since my husband isn't home and kids are sleeping), and I came upon yours. Having gone through pregnancy and the birth experience so many times, I can't can't imagine the heartache of losing your little one so quickly after. It seems completely impossible to imagine and I sat here shedding a little tear for you even though I don't know you. What a special little spirit he must have had to have only needed such a short stay here.
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