oh the nightmares..

I forgot about the pregnancy nightmares I had with Kate's pregnancy. They made me anxious and scared out of my mind. Apparently, I have them this time too. Last night I dreamt that we gave birth to a gorgeous baby girl with a head full of hair like her angel brother Charlie. This baby girl wasn't going to stay with us though. In my dream we were at the Children's hospital like we were with Charlie. They told us there was something wrong with her heart and that it wasn't working correctly although they weren't sure why and could give us no answers. They told us to expect her to die and they took her off of all support. We took pictures and held her. We sang to her like we did Charlie. She didn't die though -- she opened her eyes and smiled at us and she fought to stay. It would seem that she was starting to thrive on her own.. I woke up from the dream in a cold sweat -- not knowing the outcome. I got out of bed and had a warm glass of milk and tried to shake it off. I had alot of these dreams when I was pregnant with Kate. Although this pregnancy has been relatively less stressful and anxiety-filled thanks to the distraction of Ms. Kate --- I can see that the anxiety manifests itself in my dreams instead.